It never gets easier. Sending them off for the holidays. 8 days. 8 of the longest days in the history of ever. Will Gwen get enough vegetarian food? Will Sean pee his pants every day? Will Katie fall into debilitating sadness?
It never gets easier. Sending them off for the holidays. 8 days. 8 of the longest days in the history of ever. It was only supposed to be 4 according to the court paperwork but Jim gave in like he does. He gave her everything that she wanted to avoid the confrontation. Court is coming again in January. We have to be on our best behavior.
It never gets easier. Sending them off for the holidays. 8 days. 8 of the longest days in the history of ever. Them sleeping on the floor. No lock on the bathroom door. No privacy. 8 people in a 600 square foot apartment. The smoke. The TV on 24 hours a day. The constant and consistent yelling.
It never gets easier. Sending them off for the holidays. 8 days. 8 of the longest days in the history of ever. I get tired of being quiet. I get tired of not having a voice. I get tired of being the stepmother when really, I mean let’s be real America, I am their mother.
It never gets easier. Sending them off for the holidays. 8 days. 8 of the longest days in the history of ever. I say to myself remember grace. I say to myself remember pray. I say to myself remember love.
This is the first year I have ever publicly said anything about being a stepmother at the holidays. This is the first year I have ever publicly put it all on the line. This is the first year I have told all of you the truth. This sucks. I am bitter. I am angry. I feel like I may be suffocating on my own breath.
It never gets easier. Sending them off for the holidays. 8 days. 8 of the longest days in the history of ever. Dear Stepmothers, I see you. Dear Mothers, You are welcome.
It’s Friday, engage in acts of Graceful Revolution. xoxoxo Dr. Melissa Bird
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